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Silly old blog.

getting all artsy on a beer bottle cap

Life has been relatively angst-free lately. That and I’ve been keeping busy. I’m only posting because I can feel the mold growing on this page. I figure I’d better put something up or you’ll all move on to bigger and brighter pastures. There are so many bigger and brighter blogs to read these days. If I weren’t so old and wise (ha ha) I’d hang up my hat and say phooey! I can’t compete. But I know it’s not about competition. I do this because when I don’t do it, I miss it. Silly old blog.

For no reason at all I’ve been thinking about turning 40.

I was looking at the photos that Angella posted of me the other day. I know they are beautiful pictures of a mother and her child but of course my vanity took over and I couldn’t see any farther than my dry frazzled hair and my hopelessly-genetic double chin. (Don’t go look. I’m not linking on purpose.) This got me to thinking about how I’ve fallen hard off the daily-walking bandwagon (must get back on that, stat) and how I’ve been sort of perturbed at my body lately. So there’s that.

But you know, I’m going to be 40 in four years. Middle age is here. I think I’m doing pretty good, considering.


  • Jummy

    It’s funny how we see our selves so differently from how others see us. To me you look so young and fun that I don’t even think of you being in your 30s! I think your face will always look young and I think there is all sorts of truth to the “you’re only as old as you feel” phrase.

    And four years is AGES away! No need to even think about 40 anytime soon!

  • Neil

    Oh, come on, SAJ, you knew we were all going to chime in and say how fantastic you looked, even if we didn’t mean it. But this time, we mean it. Or at least I do. And age is mostly a number. You were a regular geisha girl in your chinese new year top. And like Angella says, that beautiful spirit never wrinkles, even when you are 90.

  • nicole

    i hear you. i turn 37 in 2 months. i have a genetic double chin and super bad self body image these days! however i saw the photos and i did not notice your chin! does this help or am i making things worse. focus on the brilliance of your life. blather blather blather.

  • Beth

    life goes fast….don’t push it any faster! Seems like i was just in my 30’s…now 49 is creeping up on me! oy!! My Hubs turned 50 this past weekend….it is only a number!!! We still act like the young kids we use to be! just in bed earlier these days! haha
    It’s the frame of mind that counts! think happy, it will show!

  • Busymomma66

    Oh honey–you are a baby. 40+ is not bad. It’s actually kinda fun. My kids are older and more independent. I’m able to now look at myself and figure out who I am and delve into these passions that I’m finding and never knew existed. My kids get to come along for the ride.

    BTW–the 40s are the new 30s. hehehe

  • Jennifer

    OK, you’re funny. I’ve seen you IN PERSON and you look much younger than even your current age. No worries about aging dear.

    With that being said, I’m freaked out about 40!!! I hate thinking back to my early twenties when I thought that 40 was SO OLD.

  • mamalang

    I, too, will be 40 in 4 years. And that doesn’t bother me. I’m working very hard at accepting myself as I am this year. It frustrates my husband when I “dismiss” his compliments, so I’m trying to accept them instead.

    You are beautiful, and we are our own worst critics. I truly believe the maturity to let go and enjoy life makes us even more beautiful, and most of us don’t achieve that until we get past our 20’s.

  • lynne

    I keep on surprising myself when I remember how old I am.

    I get a shock when I see the lines around my eyes, but then again they make me look kind, which I suppose is not a bad thing.

    I’m with Neil, your spirit will never age and personally I think you look cute.

  • Anna-b-bonkers

    Thank you B. I am now feeling much better about 30. OK, maybe not, but I think it is because I still feel 23 in my head and when I look in the mirror it kinda freaks me out.
    Dido to those walks.

  • beachmom

    I am so excited to have found you and your site again! After some computer and blog issues over the last couple of months (lost it all, all I tell you!) I had lost so many of my favorite blogs and just hadn’t been able to track them down. Major problem with a reader – I click over often, but can’t recite my blog list from memory!

    Take it from someone turning 40 in July – WHAAAAAAA? I still feel like I am just out of school, but no one would think that to look at me. Hopefully the old adage is true … you are as old as you feel!