Beach Bits,  Bug,  Moody Blues

Life Goes On…

Toby says, “You better write something… your blog readers are going to think there is something wrong with you.” What a sweet husband. He worries about you guys. But between you and me, I think he worries that you’ll think things are rocky between us. Which they aren’t, thankfully.

I am fine. I’m not pulling any usual Brenda freak-out tricks. I’m not crying or driving off to the sticks in a huff. I’m not chopping all my hair off or sitting on the top of a parking structure watching traffic go by. I’m fine. I just needed a break. I might still need a break. Breaks are incredibly freeing, even from blogging which is probably my most favorite hobby.

I’ve been a bit preoccupied with my latest get rich scheme (the “binner-bonnet” idea that went down like a sad fizzled balloon and broke my heart) and my regular work load for various freelance clients. I’m torn between the work I love to do and the work that pays well. I’m torn between being a mom to the most darling little girl ever and my constant inner drive to always be busy busy busy creating things. I wish I didn’t have so many hobbies. I think I could be such a better mom if I wasn’t always day dreaming about some project or other.

But in spite of my brain bramble, I’m doing fine. Baby Bug continues to charm me with her cuteness and the beach continues to awe me with it’s ever changing color. I’ve been taking pictures of the same view for ten years but still, I find new things worth capturing.

I also just wanted to check in and say hi. (HI!) And for my mom, I wanted to show her this picture of Baby Bug with a hair clip in. It lasted for about .5 seconds.


  • Heather

    Glad you’re ok. Sounds like you and I are in a similar funk these days. I don’t have such nifty red shoes to clomp around in, though.

  • Jen

    Hang in there SAJ and thanks for letting us know all is well with you…your devoted subjects look forward to seeing your beautiful posts every day but I can imagine that keeping up with the blog, all your freelance work, the bebe and everything else is quite a lot. I don’t know how you do it! Keep well!

  • DeeJay

    Breaks are a wonderful thing. It’s been about 2 years since I’ve had one. lol No, really. Now that we have the money my husband claims that I need to take off on my own little adventure. Not as a mom, sister, daughter or wife…just me. Maybe I’ll go on a cheap cruise. Who knows. Too many choices.

    Glad things are going well for you and yours. Love those beach shots. Theres nothing quite as relaxing as sitting at the beach watching and listenting to the waves crash…or roll in. Ahhhh…heaven.

  • josephine

    binnerbonnet was my bee-in-her-bonnet theme party consulting idea. It went down like the titanic (for now) because I couldn’t get an url I liked. sounded like “binner bonnet”

    Karen: The dress is from Carter’s. It was a gift so I don’t know anything more than that. Hope that helps!

  • BeachMama

    Glad to hear you are in a normal funk like everyone else I know right now. I know you guys don’t get the same winter (think snow) blues but, truly it is time for Spring. Things will work out, they always seem to in the end.

    Love your beach photos, I don’t think I would ever get tired of photographing the beach either, even after 10 years.

  • gretchen

    Those photos make me think of one of my favorite songs- Elvis Costello “Angels Want to Wear My Red Shoes”.

    Hope today is a good day. Take a deep breath of beach air for me in Ohio!

  • Mary O

    Love the red shoes in the top pic. I’m glad you’re back! Toby was right, I think your readers were getting just a little worried. =)

  • Amanda

    I think that your creativity isn’t a liability to your mothering, rather an enhancement. Baby Bug is always going to have the greatest parties and costumes and so many fun memories thanks to your creativity. It’s hard to balance everything out, but I think you’re doing a great job of juggling.

  • Kim

    These funks are so hard. Especially when you’re torn between things you love either way. Wouldn’t it be so much easier if you felt stuck and at least one option wasn’t a great one? Hopefully it clears up and works out – I’m sure it will. And where did you get those awesome red shoes? Oh – and the sunset pictures? Oh how it makes me miss CA. They’re gorgeous.

  • Susie

    I’m glad you’re okay. If it makes you feel any better, I’m starting a business, and every name my partners and I come up with is taken or trademarked. Forget the URL, we can’t get past the name!

    Anyway, enjoy your time with baby bug and Toby!

  • OMSH

    Of course we are begging you not to put away the idea because we all know that your creative juice must flow IN ORDER to be a good mommy. Good mommies are true to themselves.

    I have struggled with being true to myself. I think, but I should be JUST a SAHM (as if “just” a sahm isn’t the largest task ever), but I can’t. I have a drive – a need – to do SOMETHING other than mommy work. I love mommy work. I adore my chil’ens. I need to be active in their lives.

    BUT … BUT … BUT

    I need to learn. I need to code. I need to challenge. I need to write. I need to brain spew. I need to do a lot of things that have nothing to do with offspring.

    And I’m fed up with feeling like that makes me feel less of a mommy.
    I should blog this instead of spewing it here, right?

  • Angella

    Creativity is WHO YOU ARE! Don’t wish it away – if you were to stop your creativity you’d be too unhappy to continue being a good mom. But wondering about it shows you’re a good mom because you want to be the best mom you can be. Make sense?

    Her hair is SO cute like that. If only Emily would hurry up and grow hair…

  • Brittany

    Quick question. I’m planning a Breakfast at Tiffany’s Wedding Shower. I was wondering if you have any quick ideas for what could make it great. Thanks!


  • rachel

    From a purely outsider-looking-in perspective, I think you are and will be a fantastic mother because you’re always thinking creatively about your baby and OTHER things. Baby Bug is gonna have an amazing role model to learn from. Cheers to you.

  • Marilyn

    That hair clip photo totally puts that sunset to shame. But, see, Brenda, you wouldn’t be the Mom you are if you didn’t have the creativity buzzing around you that you do. I think that’s kinda how it works. ;) (I know I’m a non-Mom…but I am an old weezer who’s been around the life block a few times…) ;)